By guest contributor Martina Kohler*
After my husband died quite suddenly at the end of November 2024 after a long and serious illness, and shortly before that I had started slowly reducing the antidepressants I had been taking for 8 years. I felt very bad and was angry, sad, and desperate that, in my opinion, Santa Muerte had done nothing to keep my soul mate with me any longer. I told her this and that I didn’t want her around me anymore because I was too disappointed. As a result, I took down her altar and statues and put them away in the closet.
But I hadn’t just given up on Santa Muerte, I had given up on all kinds of faith and spirituality. They were tough months with lots of ups and downs. Ten days ago, my doctor told me it was time to stop taking the antidepressants altogether. Two nights later, I had a dream in which La Niña Negra appeared to me and said, “I’m here for you and I’m holding you in my arms.” It felt so good that the next day I set up her altar again and invited her to be with me again.
She showed me that she was there and fully supported me. That was so beautiful, because for the next three days I had very strong physical and mental withdrawal symptoms. But with Mom’s loving support, I got through it all well. I love Mom and am so grateful to her, especially for bringing me back to her.
A new statue is arriving next week. I bought this one for her to reaffirm our relationship.
I love Mom for everything.
*Born in Berlin, Germany, Martina still lives there. She’s always been spiritually inclined. and came across Santa Muerte 8 years ago. She likes that Santa Muerte is a strong saint who doesn’t judge us, but is there to help anyone who is willing to worship her.
Most Holy Death 